Right about now i don’t think my schedule has ever been so packed. Together with the last month of uni ( yeah, i been doing higher education ting for 4 years now!) i finish the degree on the 13th may ( 3 days after my bday i might add) So deadlines for essays, final major projects and all that bullshit are coming to loggerheads, i also have a schedule of gigs and editorial shoots ( going holland end of month for two of the above.)

So on top of that and add a several ( ok maybe 60) angry ‘why haven’t you replied’ to me emails and texts into the mix ( saaarrry!) , and i am basically surviving on sugar free red bull and coffee and porridge ( easy to make, complex carbs, you know) , so this is a plea to the good people at the Red Bull HQ, in order to keep this pace going, i am in direct need of a fridge… luke warm red bull aint doing it in the same way!

I know you guys won’t forsake me in my time of need!

MOTHERS DAY LUNCH , cooked by me

Have i changed much ?? lol

My Great Aunt 93 years old… Such an inspiration.

Me aged like 4/5 looking proper smug at my Aunties wedding. I thought this dress was the sh*t.
Me at Nursery … Not exactly the team player…

I remember we had this carnival dance performance thing we had to do , that kid with the google eyes was a right nutter.

Doing activities with the neighbours kids, making Hello Kitty faces. I think i enjoyed that more than them.

me with emma

cranberry cocktail. so yum

Red Velvet cake with mum.

Had the yummiest lunch at The Westbury Mayfair while i was attempting to do some form of sale shopping. I don’t really hardly ever drink because frankly, i am just too much of a lightweight, but if i do, i always order something sweet like a white russian ,which is a combination of like coffee and creme and something else really boozey that tastes good.

I totally forgot to blog this photo of some of my christmas presents. My mum got me a Hello Kitty DVD! brilliant.

Was really the best welcome home when i got a letter from Mac giving me a special ”DJ/PERFORMER” discount card ( didn’t even know that existed!) 25% off , steezy.

Its my Dad’s Bday on Saturday so me and my Mum wanted to buy him an ipad, when we arrived at the mac store my blog was already on one of the demonstration models. Cool but bizarre to see!

I’m really the most rubbish i’ve ever been with this section of the blog. I’m not gonna go on about how busy i am as i think i just about started every diary blog post like that in the last few months, and besides the whole i’m too busy to blog/eat/sleep and do anything else than work makes me sound like an east london douche bag – even if its true, the busy bit, not the douche bag part (arguably) and don’t worry we will come to the east london reference later.

Dunno where to start, so i’ll begin with the light stuff…

I got sent these earphones courtesy of TruffleShuffle.com and they are too cute for words! Wearing these at the next gig for sure!

Talking about the next gig, i’ve got a whole 2 months off gigs n’ djing . I’ve cleared my gig schedule until the new year ( with 1 or 2 exceptions) as i’m literally running myself into the ground, together with the 3rd year of uni ( i did contemplate quitting, as i’m already doing what i want to do now and don’t need a fancy degree to do that) but i’m no fashion school drop out, plus i wanna make mum proud, so i decided to hunker down, and now have 1 more year of education- * sigh *

So no more 4 am bedtimes, which means I’ve got loads of time and energy for all the shoots and videos i’m getting booked to style and then essays and whatever else on the schedule.

Oh i moved to East London, i love my new apartment and i love my neighbourhood, i’m right by a canal that looks beautiful and magical at night. So magical that i’m doing a shoot for Glossy Magazine there in a few days. Here are some of the test shots i did with the photograher Alex, i look like my 13 year old chavy self in my j-lo coat which i found in my mum and dads house looking all sad and screwed up in a bin bag from like 6 years ago.

I wasn’t in the best mood, it being 8 at night and below freezing .

p.s ala no makeup. gulp

As i said i love my new house. But I only gots me really blurry webcam snaps, but hopefully my friend Lora is coming round to take some realllll swish pictures and then i’ll properly be able to share my new studio/come home/come love.

I’ve really ALWAYS wanted a red kitchen.

And my bed, just like the canal is even more beautiful and magical at night. … pause, cheap shot. But it really is the campest and comfiest bed in the world, i could write a eulogy on it. But i won’t, all you need to know is that its a brown leather, king sized raised off the ground mega bed with leather steps leading up to the mattress on each side.

Here’s me languishing in its amazing-ness complete with smug look.

HOLLAND

I miss holland and my best friends Ottelien and Annette so much. Here is Ot drowning in the biggest duvet ever and checking her iphone from when i was there last.

This is our street – Right near the centre of Amsterdam, i say ‘our’ as its really my second home.

Ot’s bedroom – The most magical and calming place in the whole of Holland.

biiiiiiig mirrrrorrrr

Portugese tiles in the shower. stroke of interior design genius.

Ot and Net being twins, got the exact same tattoo.

When i used to wear laces in my af1’s.

The yummiest most fattening dutch snack which basically consists of mayo and egg! Lekker.

One afternoon we made a quick drive to the sea side and stopped for tea in the cafe.

But tea turned into a snack and we ordered Cheese and mustard sauce. Which made me laugh, can you imagine ordering this in the UK, i think the waitress would recommend you to get the hell out of the restaurant, stop wasting her time and go to tesco and buy some cheddar and dijon.

We went to Harlem to the best mexican restaurant. Of corse i had a burrito with extra chilli sauce.

Yes i miss Holland.

And finally, LOVE.

When i was 5 Disney told me Love would be like this:

When i was 4 Fred Astaire and Ginger Rogers told me Love was like this:

16 years on, and i realised i was tricked. Love isn’t floating around a ballroom in a feather gown being romanced by a handsome man with a side parting in a tailored suit. Love isn’t a fairy tale where you are rescued on a magic carpet and taken away from all of your troubles and woes. True Love is being made eggs just the way you like them on hot buttery toast and given paracetamol when you have a stinking cold and a splitting migraine, this is the sort of romance that turns the dust of everyday life into a golden haze.

I’m such a romantic and i love this stunning film from super model Coco Rocha’s wedding. Beautiful dress, and such a simple small wedding- perfect fairy tale/disney stuff.

Coco + James // Teaser from Americana Cinema on Vimeo.

FULL VIDEO

Coco + James // Short film from Americana Cinema on Vimeo.

Photo’s of Coco and James taken by Behati Prinsloo. See all the photos here on FACEBOOK

You’d be amazed at what £3 can buy you!

In a previous life what you see below was an 8year olds ice skating outfit, partly made out of velvet, partly out of legging fabric, in theory this should be one hot mess, but with a chunky belt (ooh i do love a chunky belt me), a fierce pair of Lulu Guiness Heels and a scarf made into a headdress it sort of works!

I was going through a few blogs the other day and here i found these pictures of me interviewing various ‘celebs’. Seeing all these pictures made me remember how many amazing people i have met in the last 2 years, and the places i have travelled to interview these individuals for various programmes and online TV channels. People always ask me my all time favourite interview, i always say Vivienne Westwood, she has been a major inspiration since i was 14 and is a true original, plus she was the easiest person to interview, she talked for hours but everything she said was full of wisdom and each word worth a diamond.

Interviewing Jeremy Scott for ‘FASHION WEEK LIVE’  which went out to 91 million people world wide. YIKES

INTERVIEWING MR HUDSON

PRESENTING FOR ONLINE UK MUSIC SHOW ‘THE GREEN ROOM’

PRESENTING AT NIKE iD

IN TALKS WITH MY BOY JONNY MAKEUP FRONT ROW AT LFW. HE’S SO CRAYZEE I LOVE HIM!

CHATS WITH KELLY CUTRONE FROM ‘THE HILLS’ -POWERFUL BUT LOVELY WOMAN.

PRESENTING FOR A FRENCH TV CHANNEL AT PARIS FASHION WEEK! TRES BIEN! OH LALA

INTERVIEWING BLACK THE RIPPER FOR THE GREEN ROOM

Being a Stylist and DJ plus holding down uni it all gets a bit hectic though. Thats why a few months ago i advertised the vacancy / job role of fashion assistant on a few industry websites. The amount of applicants which applied was completely mad! Literally about 300 people emailed within the space of 2 weeks. So after shifting through endless cv’s, the interviews started. There were some pretty dismal entrees, and luckily some pretty amazing ones, and so after talking to around 20 girls, There were 7 who really stuck out, but i just couldn’t make myself choose.

All were super duper talented within art, fashion and music, and all were after internships. So instead of choosing 1, i decided it might be cool to sort of form a mini creative team…. and so the .com girls were born.

A group of young creatives
a sisterhood
a team

Whatever, but since then we’ve all grown pretty close!

As well as work pretty hard in the studio, conversation always seems to come around to boys. So, i suggested that each girl made a diary entree about a boy ( or in some cases boys) * gulp* i was shocked when everyone said they hadnt kept a diary about a boy since they were 13, and everyone said hell yea… so for one day only, here are the .com girls’ ‘boy diaries’. Justa bita funa.

SARAH YOUNG : STYLIST , DJ , PRESENTER.

DEAR DIARY

I once cooked him pan fried salmon in herbs, sea salt, ground pepper and pesto with asparagus in organic butter and mint buttered potatoes….. i’m a mug. What can i say, i blame my high expectations of men on Disney.

SY X

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FELICIA PENNANT: FUTURE FASHION STYLIST AND BLOGGER

DEAR DIARY

Last night my friend and I were out and we got to talking with these two guys on our table. One of the guys ‘X’ kept mentioning his ex-girlfriend so we asked what happened. He told us that she was an amazing girl but whilst he was drunk on a night out he kissed another girl. I was like ‘so You’re a cheater?’ and he was like ‘No, I made a mistake’. The situation was made worse by the fact that it was the week of the John Terry scandal and of course the aftermath of Tiger Woods’ affairs. I was like ‘you’ve gone so far down in my estimations’ and told him I was glad his girlfriend left him as it showed she had repesct for herself. He looked really sad like he’d lost the best girl ever but I told him he only had himself to blame. Ok, I was kinda harsh but I wanted him to know that not all girls kept their heads in the sand like Elin Woods, Toni Terry and Cheryl Cole (no official divorce proceedings started or confirmed), Cheating on someone for me is the ultimate relationship betrayal and this includes kissing. It shows your relationship is based on a lie as how can someone like/love you so much and be so selfish. They are hurting you and what makes it worse is that girls give guys license to cheat as they take them back. Look at Elin, Toni and Cheryl- they’ve been cheated on multiple times. It gives guys power and allows them to emotionally abuse you. X tried to defend himself by admitting subconsciously he wanted to end the relationship anyway and that men can’t help it if girls are throwing themselves at them- that is no excuse. This made me wonder why there is a lack of sisterhood amongst girls. Footballers cheat because they have sex on tap from multiple wannabe WAGs but these girls know they are married which children. How can we judge men so negatively for cheating when our own sex behaves in exactly the same way? I say GIRLS STICK TOGETHER. YOU DON’T NEED A MAN LIKE THAT. AND GIRLS A MAN THAT CHEATS WITH YOU WILL CHEAT ON YOU.

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CHRISTINA DANIELS : GRAPHIC DESIGNER

DEAR DIARY:

Boys smell.

Christina

x

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JADE DOUSE – FUTURE STYLIST.

DEAR DIARY:

So, I’m in Nando’s with my boyfriend, you know just a normal dinner out, and then this girl comes in, and she starts to walk over to our table, with some screw face. So I’m thinking ok! What’s this about!?
She goes to him “what do you think your playing at”, and he tries to look at me and say 1 sec, and then has the cheek to take the girl outside. DPMO! What do I look like, obviously your tryna date some next girl, whilst your dating me, the girl is not even worth it., downgrade!
So anyway, I sit there and wait for him to come back, still mad baffed, waiting for an explanation, AND do you know what he coma back and said – “ahh sorry my cousins on a hype”!!!! OMFG! Not even a reasonable explanation, like how many boys try and play the cousin card. So I looked at him, with his smug look on his face, thinking he’s got away with it. Then I see my full glass of Fanta! Straight in the face with the drink, I picked up my things and left.
5 minutes later, I’m getting phone calls, texts saying, “I’m sorry, answer your phone I’ll explain”!
So when your lie doesn’t work out wanna try another approach. Do guys that we are stupid!! I mean come on, they really think rate themselves high! Move on to the next I say! Don’t try and gas me up, its not gonna work! Dickhead!

Jade xox

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EMILY – FASHION BLOGGER

DEAR DIARY

Can you be friends with an Ex?!

When it comes to relationships, you can never really know what to expect. For me, 5 years on, the relationship I was in had lost its spark; we’d fallen into that classic friendship rut. Everything was old and familiar with all the same daily routines, the same conversations and the same expectations. That excitement that every person thrives for was no longer there. I wasn’t satisfied settling for anything less than butterflies, especially at only 20 years old and so, we ended it. I then asked myself (after watching this particular question appear in an episode of Sex & the City); ‘Is it possible to transform a once passionate love into something that fits nice and easily onto the friendship shelf? Can you be friends with an ex? ‘
That comfort you gain in a relationship is hard to let go of, and so part of you wants to continue to hold on. Realistically, the best way forward is to cut all ties; stop the texting, the calls, the emails, all communication. But Is that even possible? How do you justify doing that when a relationship – in this case – ended mutually? There is no hate, no anger, no dishonesty… just the simple fact that over the more recent months, that passion had died. Or by doing this, could I be setting myself up for a whole lot of trouble, by giving my ex false hopes and allowing them into my life as “a friend”.
Becoming friends mean that we would be able to disengage the gears of the romantic connection and face each other as separate individuals. It could offer us the chance to reconcile differences and find the reason behind us drifting apart, or give us the opportunity to say what needs to be said in order to put the romantic feelings to rest. But still I question, would this just risk further disappointment and heartache? Are any of these expectations realistic? The constant re-wounding can delay the overall process of healing and result in resentment towards one another.
Sometimes people fool themselves into believing they can handle having a friendship with their ex. Instead, they are subjecting themselves to prolonging the pain and delaying the closure by staying friends, because they fail to recognize that they can in fact stand on their own two feet. So I have to ask myself; am I staying friends to become emotionally stronger? Or am I just resisting letting go?

EMILY X

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TAY : FUTURE FASHION PR.

DEAR DIARY,

BOYS SHOULD FIX UP.

Hey, so last night I helped this girl who felt really uncomfortable
with this guy who was trying to ‘churps’ her on the tube. As girls I think we should
stick together especially in times of need like the one I experienced last night
! I was just minding my own business, eating some fruit (as u do) when I noticed
this guy staring at the girl who was sitting across from me. He was making this
‘psst’ sound at first then decided to invade her space by sitting next to her.
He wasn’t exactly the HOTTEST of guys and she was practically on the edge of her
seat trying to avoid making eye contact with him and looked at me rolling her eyes
in disbelief that this guy was not getting her not so subtle messages that she
wasn’t interested. It was quite funny tbh, thinking about the times this has happened
to me. Anyway after about 5 stops he finally got off, told her he loves her and
hopes to see her again soon. The girl thanked me for staying on the tube with her
and we laughed about it. This made me think that some men/boys need to work on
their flirting techniques. Girls don’t appreciate you invading their personal space
, approaching them with bad body odour (yuck!)or spraying them with spit with every
word you speak! Come on guys FIX UP!… or am I just being too harsh ?? nah. PAR.

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JODIE FUTURE FASHION DESIGNER ,  PR AND MUSIC LOVER.

DEAR DIARY.

I was out the one night and was standing by this couple arguing (very loud) lol and the guy called the girl “paranoid’ the girl got slightly louder and very irate and said ‘ the definition of paranoid is : ”Exhibiting an extreme and irrational fear or distrust of others.” his face was a picture he didn’t know what had hit him! Then she went on to say ‘ it doesn’t say much for you does it, and in fact you guys love to use the word paranoid but i would call it ”im not bloody stupid” she then proceed to storm off. I love this!! It gave me a little giggle….. guys love to brush it off with ‘your paranoid’.

Quote of the day

“YOU CALL IT PARANOID WE CALL IT ‘IM NOT BLOODY STUPID”

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DERYA – ARTIST/ GRAPHIC DESIGNER

DEAR DIARY:

NO TIME FOR BOYS NOW, but looking forward to meeting Prince Charming…soon- ish.

Derya xx

P.s meet the team for the day …. oh and  the boobs, they wanted to get involved too.